I look at this person, talk about perfection. I’m right there next to him but barely noticed. I follow him everywhere he goes. I’m there when it’s bad, I’m there when it’s good. I’m always there.
He loves people and he hates people. He cries and gets scared. I’ve heard him yell, I’ve heard him laugh. Not with me, but I’m always there.
I have always had a million thoughts running through my mind but lately it’s been awful…Most of the time I wish I could just let go of everything. I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I really don’t want to go back to my dark place but I’m heading in that direction. I am feeling completely alone and conflicted. ☹️
I can’t seem to find a place
Where I don’t see your face
You’re everywhere I go
You’re in everyone I know
Hey. I hope everyone is doing well.
I am so confused about everything.
I am actually converting to Judaism. I feel really happy about my choice. I love learning about it. I was always trying to find what religion I fit into. I went to church for several years, and as much as I loved the community it wasn’t a fit for me. So I kept reading about different religions, and Judaism just struck me as something I should look more into. The more I learned the more I knew that it was what I needed in my life. And I’m just at the beginning of the conversion process and it’s going to be a long time before I’m officially Jewish but I can’t wait. I’m really happy.
Sorry I haven’t written in a long time. I’ve been having a very busy few weeks. I just wanted to let you know you will have an actual post soon (This isn’t that post. Lol). Thanks.